Fireproof

Last week I read the "Fireproof" book. I also watched the movie the week before that and both are really good. I would suggest reading the book first though. But, my point about "Fireproof" is that there is a very good part that got me thinking. Here is the part from the book:

"How am I supposed to show love to someone over and over and over who constantly rejects me?"

His dad came to a halt at the solitary cross. He looked up, then leaned against the vertical beam as he studied his son through wire-rimmed glasses.

Caleb blinked against the sunlight.

"That's a good question," John said.

Caleb lifted his gaze to the cross, this ancient symbol of love and sacrifice, then let it come back to rest on his father. With the meeting of eyes, something flashed through Caleb's thoughts. "No." He hardened his jaw. "No, that is not what I'm doing."

The movie does a very good job depicting this scene. As soon as Caleb asks his father how he is supposed to love someone, the camera pans over to his father standing right next to the cross. It is saying "HELLO" what do you think this represents!?

This just got me thinking because it is true. God loves us unconditionally even after we continually reject him. I find that to be crazy, but in a good way. Someone loves me so much that they will love me even after I ignore them for so long. How many of us have that kind of patience? How many of us would stand by someone who continually rejected us? I mean in my own personal life I think I have failed to follow this example of love. In high school I tried to show someone that I truly cared about them, and every time it was thrown back in my face. The relationship ended badly and took over two years to somewhat mend. If I had followed this example of love, than the relationship would not have ended the way it did.

Not sure if any of this made sense, but just wanted to share my thoughts.

Selfish?

How does one tell if they are being selfish? Where does someone draw the line between being selfish and being selfless?

I have been thinking about this for about the last week. It started when Margie, Rafa, and I went to Azusa last week and met up with my family. Toward the end of the day, a subject was brought up about a possible change come August. Most know what I want to do, but how do I know if it is right? After talking to my family about this situation, I began to wonder if I was just being selfish in wanting a change. Every reason that I come up with for this change always starts with "I want," and I don't know if that is enough to follow through with it. One of the main reasons that I want this change is because I believe that it will help in my walk, but I don't know if this is being selfish. Does this seem that I am looking out for myself? Am I forgetting everyone else and just doing what I want to do? Everyone I have talked to agrees with me about the situation, which helps a little, but I still can't shake this feeling of being selfish.

Another reason that I am questioning this decision is because I don't know the effect it will have on my family. If I were to go through with everything, it would most likely put my family in a bit of a bind for a while. I just don't know if it is really worth it. Is it worth risking this just for something that I want?

I guess my main problem is that I can't decided if this is something that is needed or something that is just wanted. Then I guess the next question is how do I figure out if it is a need or a want?

Favorite Lyrics

Here are some of my favorite lyrics.

These are some of my favorite lyrics. I went through my itunes really quickly so I probably missed some, but these are still good. You should listen to these song if you get a chance. If you listen to them I promise it makes the lyrics 10 times better.

1. "This little box holds a shiny thing, a shiny ring that means you're everything." - Gabe Bondoc "Life Love Everything"
2. "I'm just one of a million who wants to get to know one in a million you." - Gabe Bondoc "Chasing"
3. "You know I miss you more than Shaq miss free throws . . . that's a lot." - Gym Class Heroes "Catch Me If You Can"
4. "I will move ahead bold and confident, taking every step in obedience." - John Waller "While I'm Waiting"
5. "When you cheated girl, my heart bleeded girl, so it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt. Just a classic case scenario, tale as old as time girl you got what you deserved." - Justin Timberlake "What Goes Around . . ./. . . Comes Around"
6. "In you we're living, in you we're moving, in you we're finding who we are." - Kutless "Finding Who We Are"
7. Please don't worry about me I'm fine. Only going to play the fool one time." - Ne-Yo "Go On Girl"
8. "I know sometimes it's gonna rain, but baby can we make up now 'cause I can't sleep through the pain." - Ne-Yo "Mad"
9. "You can selfish, but all I want is your love. And you can call me hopeless 'cause I'm hopelessly in love." - 'N Sync "Selfish"
10. " My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, you never need to carry more than you can hold." - Rascal Flatts "My Wish"
11. "Your love is built like a drug and I don't want to be sober." - T-Pain (Feat. Justin Timberlake) "Can't Believe It (Remix)"
12. "So you scream at the sky as you're lying there, throwing words in the air 'cause he doesn't care if you're beautiful. And you dream of a world in a better place, where you don't have to put up a happy face." - Chris August "Just the Way You Are"
13. "Dictionary, how come I can't find, any words inside you that apply, none of these words seem to catch my eye. We need a new word for her." - Gabe Bondoc "Dictionary"
14. "So what have I got to prove, and what have I got to lose when you're not worth fighting for. And why am I feeling down while your out messing around and you're not worth begging for." - Five Times August "Up To Me"
15. "Man I wish I could stop time like a photograph" - Kanye West "Good Night"
16. "Cause if your love was all I had in this life, that would be enough until the end of time" - Justin Timberlake "Until the End of Time"
17. "I'd rather you're happy, than miserable with me" - Ne-Yo "Back To What You Know"
    

25 Random Things

Since I don't know what to write about right now, I am going to copy Kat. =)

1. I believe that I am a good listener.
2. I fall into the typical "nice guy" description.
3. I can move my ears.
   
4. I am trying my best right now to go further in my walk with God.
5. I wonder sometimes where I would be in my life without EC. This is a scary thought.
6. My favorite color is blue.
7. I rarely ever blow up on people.
8. My favorite number is 23.
9. My favorite sport is basketball.
10. I have two sisters named Shayna and Trisha. I can't believe how old they are!
    
11. I spend at least 75% of my time in the La Jolla area.
12. I can't read text books at all. They put me to sleep.
13. I hate it when people don't say thank you when you hold the door open for them.
    
14. I listen to every type of music except for screaming metal and twangy country.
15. My favorite subject is math.
    
16. My favorite Disney movie of all time is Aladdin.
17. I have lived in Sacramento, Stockton, and San Diego.
18. I hate when the box of my DVD box sets are damaged.
19. I have a lot of patience with people.
20. I don't have a problem with watching "chick" flicks.
    
21. I have more girl best friends than I have guy best friends.
22. I need to work on getting out of my comfort zone more.
23. I try my best to put others before myself.
24. When I feel comfortable with someone I begin to joke with them. (so if I make fun of you take it as a good thing) =)
25. I hate being late to anything. This causes me to plan too much.