Been Forever

Man it has been a long time since I have written on this thing. I just looked and it's been over a year. Crazy how fast time goes now. A lot has happened since the last time I have posted. I've definitely learned somethings about myself through this time. Finally was able to get over that whole girl issue from last year. Took some time but realized that I did everything that I could and you couldn't ask for more. Also recently have learned that I am tired of being the second thought. I am not going to be the "not right now" guy anymore. As much as I'm the hopeless romantic, I just need to be patient and try to stop forcing things. It's going to happen when it happens.

Well this is just me throwing out whatever is on my mind right now. Hopefully I write more in this new coming year.

I am still up

So it is 3 in the morning and I can't seem to fall asleep. I tired to listen to Gabe Bondoc and that didn't help at all. So I have decided to just write a bunch of randomness.

1. I can't believe 2010 is almost over! Where did the year go?

2. SDSU basketball is currently ranked 25th

3. I would like to go back to 3rd or 4th grade. There was no stressing when you are that old

4. I still have yet to fully fill my closet

5. Give me chemistry over bio any day

6. I really think that I would be able to watch ESPN all day

7. I have come to realize that the stereotypical guys really get on my nerves

8. I am slowly getting use to the taste of beer

9. Everyone seems to be shocked when I tell them that I am 22. Man I am getting old

10. I plan to try to make it to every State basketball game that I can

11. I really dislike my Fluids class

12. I am glad that I finally bought a white board because I use it all of the time

13. Yes, I do know that I am a huge dork, geek, and anything else related to those

14. We need to get back into blogging, K seems to be the only one blogging at the moment

15. The new Tim Be Told album needs to hurry up and come out

16. I am no longer against studying with a large group

OK, that is all I can think of right now. I will try to sleep now

Questions

This is taken from K

1. Do you color? If you do, is it with markers, crayons, colored pencils, etc.?

I actually don't color that often, but when I do I prefer to color with color pencils. I just don't have enough patience to make my picture look super nice.

2. What's the most organized part (or system) in you house?

I would have to say my closet. From left to right: my dress shirts, than my short sleeves divided by color, than than short sleeve polos divided by color, than long sleeve polos divided by colors, than my long sleeve thermals divided by colors, than my henleys divided by colors, than my sweaters/track jackets with zippers divided by colors, and lastly are my hoodies (and yes you guessed it, they are divided by colors). Then on the top of my closet are my shoes. From left to right: Jordans, Nikes, Vans, and than others.

3. What's the most unorganized part (or system) in your house?

I have to go with my school supply draw. I have a bunch of pencils, erasers, pens, a stapler, note cards, and other school stuff that just seems to be everywhere in the draw. I do know where to find everything though. =)

4. If you had unlimited amounts of time & money, what museum would you want to see and why?

I am not sure if this really counts as a museum, but I would really like to see the Giza Pyramids. I learned about them earlier in the semester and they are really amazing. All of the things that are incorporated into it (like how true north it follows) is an amazing thing given the technology they had back than.

5. What is your favorite part of the fall season?

I think since living in San Diego for a little over four years now, I have come to like the cold when fall rolls around. I have realized that I really like wearing jeans and a thermal/henley for some reason. I also like the cold because it is easier to keep warm than it is to keep cool in the heat.

6. Did you dress up for Halloween?

Nope. I haven't dressed up for Halloween since 6th grade maybe? Can't really remember.

7. Have you started Christmas shopping?

Nope again. I am barely thinking about Thanksgiving. School is taking way too much of my time and is taking over my life. My friend and I did look up engineering jokes today though. One of my favorites was: Dating an engineering is a good thing because they know how to deal with stress and strain in a relationship. Yes I know I am a geek =)

8. Do you crack you knuckles?

Every now and than. I used to do it a lot in high school but I stopped since than. I tend to crack my back a lot though.

9. If you had to live in another city for a year (all expenses paid), which city would you choose?

This is a hard one for me. I can't see my self living outside of California (if all expenses are paid I would want to go somewhere I have never been before), but I guess I would have to say Chicago. I would go visit the United Center all the time and go to Bull's games. I am a basketball junkie

10. Do you have any reoccurring dreams?

Nope. I can barely even remember what I dream about after I wake up.

Music

I wanted to blog but couldn't think of what to blog about. So I decided to blog about music.

I love how music can so easily relate to our current moods or situations. There always seems to be a song that one can find whenever they find themselves in any kind of mess. Songs can say how we are feeling in the good and bad times. It definitely makes the hard times go by a lot easier. I would be so lost without music in my life.

Favorite Oldie: "Right Here Waiting" - Richard Marx

Currently Stuck In My Head: "Selfish" - *NSYNC

New

Today I turned in my keys to La Jolla Crossroads. I am officially living in my new place near SDSU!!!! I am excited and nervous about this whole thing. I know it will be a good thing for me because it is going to force me out of my comfort zone and it will allow me to experience new things. So I am both excited and nervous for all of these unknown new things. It is just going to add onto the growth of myself and the things that I have learned already through the first half of this year. I just can't wait for what the rest of this year brings!!!

Questions

Ok here is something super old. This is from my old xanga page and it was posted on August 11, 2004. I am updating now.

[my name is ]: Justin

[single or taken ]: Single

[sex ]: Male

[b-day ]: April 24, 1988

[sign ]: Taurus

[siblings ]: 2 sisters Shayna and Trisha

[hair colour ]: Black

[eye colour ]: Brown

[in the morning i am ]: Tired

[love is ]: a four letter word that means everything

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-

[what do you notice first? ]: Their voice. I've noticed that I pay attention to how people sound

[what makes you smile ]: Being around them

[what gives you a funny feeling when you see them ]: Just hanging out with them I guess

[who do you have a crush on ]: Secret

-W H O-

[is easiest to talk to ]: My friends

[are your best friends? ]: I have a lot but the ones I talk to the most are Christian, Steph, Kat, and Lyn

[do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ]: No

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-

[you talked to on the phone ]: My mom

[you instant messaged ]: Robyn

[you laughed with ]: Rafa and Will

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-

[could you live without the computer? ]: No

[what's your favourite food? ]: Beef and Tofu

[what’s ur favourite fruit? ]: Strawberry

[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain? ]: Emotional pain

[trust others way too easily? ]: Yes

-N U M B E R-

[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: 1

[of hearts i have broken? ]: 0

[of tight friends? ]: Too many to name

[of cd's that i own? ]: Too many to count

[of scars on my body? ]: A few

[of things in my past that i regret? ]: 2

-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-

[i know ]: I am a huge dork

[i want ]: To be able to stop over thinking about everything

[i have ]: An amazing family and amazing friends

[i wish ]: I never had to drive again

[i hate ]: When I am late to anything and everything

[i miss ]: Being a kid and having no worries

[i fear ]: Being rejected

[i hear ]: Conversations (this is a weird one)

[i search ]: For shoes? Not sure about this one

[i love ]: Sports

[i care ]: For family and friends

[i always ]: Laugh and act stupid

[i cry ]: When I get super stressed

[i confused ]: Girls.. Who really understands them?

[i can usually be found ]: At home watching TV or doing HW

[i need ]: To learn how to stop over thinking

-A R E . Y O U-

[wuss ]: No

[gang member ]: No

[daydreamer ]: Sometimes

[freak ]: Not really

[brat ]: No

[sarcastic ]: Yes

[goody-goody ] Yes

[talkative ]: Yes when I am comfortable. I tend to be quiet when I feel uncomfortable.

-Self-Analysis-

[your best feature ]: I would like to think I am a good listner

[most annoying thing you do ]: Stress too easily

[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented ]: Legs (everyone thinks I shave, but I don't)

[you'd like to visit ]: I want to visit Hawaii again

[a drink you order most often ]: Water

[a book you highly recommend ]: Fireproof

[a film you could watch over and over ]: UP

[your cologne or perfume ]: Guess Suede

[under your bed or in your closet you hide ]: Nothing

-f a v o r i t e s-

[colour ]: Blue

[boys names ]: Not sure on names

[girls names ]: Not sure on names

[subjects in school ]: Math

[animals ]: Snakes

[sports ]: Basketball and Football

-c u r r e n t-

[clothes ]: A Hurley shirt and jeans

[music ]: Jazz

[make-up ]: None

[annoyance ]: People who think they are always right

[smell ]: Food

[favourite artist ]: Gabe Bondoc

[favourite group]: None at the moment

[desktop picture ]: Tyreke Evans

[color of toenails ]: Clear

l a s t | p e r s o n

[you touched ]: Rafa? Gave him the hand shake

[hugged ]: Rafa

[you imed ]: Robyn

[you yelled at ]: Don't even remember

a r e | y o u

[understanding ]: Yes

[open-minded ]: Yes

[arrogant ]: No

[insecure ]: Sometimes

[interesting ]: Maybe

[random ]: Yes

[hungry ]: Not right now

[smart ]: Kinda

[moody ]: Not really

[hard working ]: Yes

[organized ] Yes

[healthy ] Yes

[shy ]: Sometimes

[Difficult ]: Sometimes

[attractive ]: I don't know

[bored easily ]: Yes

[messy ]: Sometimes

[responsible ]: Yes

[obsessed ]: At times

[angry ]: No

[sad ]: Kinda

[happy ]: I guess

[trusting ]: Yes

d o | y o u | e v e r

[sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you? ]: No

[save conversations ]: Sometimes

[wish you were a member of the opposite sex? ]: Last night at the softball game. I wanted to bat more. haha

[wish you were younger ]: Yes. I want to be a kid again sometimes

[Cried because someone said something to you? ] Rarely

F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s

[do you like filling these out? ]: I don't mind them

[how many people are you sending this to ]: No one

[who will send it back ]: No one

[gold or silver ]: Gold

[what was the last film you saw at the movies? ]: Toy Story 3

[favourite cartoon/anime ]: Family Guy

[what did you have for breakfast this morning ] Nothing

[who would you love being locked in a room with ]: No one

[would you colour your hair ]: Nope

[could you ever get off the computer ]: Yes

[how many people are on your buddy list ]: 90

[who are you talkin to righ now ]: Rafa, Margie, Will, and Dar

[drink alcohol ]: Sometimes

[like watching sunrises or sunsets ]: Sunsets

Trying

These past few days have definitely been interesting, but in a good way. I have been hit with various situations in just the past few days, but with some help I am learning what kind of person I really am and the things that I can still work on about myself. I have seen now that even though I continually put others before myself, I still need to be willing to accept help when it is given. I need to be able to put my guard down and allow those who care for me to be able to help me when they can. This will be difficult for me though because it makes me feel as if I am being a selfish person by wanting the attention and the help. This just means though that I need to work on my perspective on the whole thing, which I am consciously going to try to improve on. Just because people are willing to lend a hand, does not mean I am being a selfish person by accepting that hand.

The situation that arose today has also shed light on the person that I am becoming. I always try to be a fair person, but when it seems that comprises can't be reached, decisions must be made. This doesn't mean that things have to end ugly, but it just means that the easiest thing for everyone may be to go separate ways. It has been a lot to process so far, but I am trying.

I have also learned that I really don't hold any grudges against anyone. I am now trying to build a new friendship with someone whom I have had no type of relationship whatsoever with since high school. We both know that all of the past mistakes no longer matter and that they truly are all in the past. It is pointless to dwell on the things that happened because we both have grown up and are no longer immature students. I have no idea where this road will go, but I am excited to have an old friend back and I know it will be better than it was in the past.

Trying to process this all has been a whirl wind for me. I think my head is still spinning from trying to wrap my mind around everything. But it is an amazing thing to see the type of person you are and the things that you could work on about yourself. If we weren't able to grow as people, it would be super boring.

I hope this all made sense. I have so many thoughts running through my head right now and I don't know if I was able to fully get it out on here.

Chase Merrell - "With You"

As evident by all of my recent posts, I am currently addicted to Chase Merrell. I just love the music and lyrics. He actually writes about something, unlike some music today that talks about nothing. All of these songs have a message, with "Just Be" being my favorite. I just felt like sharing all of the lyrics with you guys, so I tried my best to type all of them because his lyrics do not exist on the internet. I have all four of the songs on iTunes, so if you want them just let me know. The music just adds a whole new level to everything. But if you just want to hear the music yourself, here is his myspace.

With You

Woke up this morning, rain outside

I can't stop running, trying to hide from You

Oh God, I'm broken inside

Desperate, confused till your arms open wide

One life

One chance, experience divine romance

One God

One love

Your grace is enough for me

I breath and lift Your mighty name

You are holy

I can't believe the price You paid just to be with me

Your blood was poured out on that cross

Can this love be true?

Everyday is a brand new chance to fall more in love with You

Love undeserving, grace and mercy I find

I hear you calling, "Oh child you are mine"

Under Your wings hold me next to Your heart

I whisper Your name, always close never far

One life

One chance, experience divine romance

One God

One love

Your grace is enough for me

I breath and lift Your mighty name

You are holy

I can't believe the price You paid just to be with me

Your blood was poured out on that cross

Can this love be true?

Everyday is a brand new day to fall more in love with You

I will follow you (x8)

I breath and lift Your mighty name

You are holy

I can't believe the price You paid just to be with me

Your blood was poured out on that cross

Can this love be true?

Everyday is a brand new day to fall more in love with You

Fall more in love with You

Fall more in love with You

With You, with You

More in love with You

Chase Merrell - "Beautiful Dream"

Beautiful Dream

I was dreaming again all through the night

Never want to wake up from this feeling so right

You were standing there looking at me

I couldn't stop staring at your beauty

Then I took a deep breath, counted to three

Prayed to God and got down on my knee

When I look at your eyes you capture my heart

It's really hard to breath when you're taking my breath away

You're taking my breath away

And girl who you are is blowing my mind

Baby this time I won't let you slip away

I won't let you slip away

It all just feels so real everything happening

Any moment I can wake up from this perfect dream

And just like that, it'll be all gone

Just a boy in his bedroom singing some love song

I know one day we'll meet again

If I can only fall back asleep

When I look at your eyes you capture my heart

It's really hard to breath when you're taking my breath away

You're taking my breath away

Girl who you are is blowing my mind

Baby this time I won't let you slip away

I won't let you slip away

When I think of you and me, everything we can be

It's so beautiful

When I look at your eyes you capture my heart

It's really hard to breath when you're taking my breath away

You're taking my breath away

Girl who you are is blowing my mind

Baby this time I won't let you slip away

I won't let you slip away

Taking my breath away

You're taking my breath away, away, away, away

Dreams are beautiful

Another Chase Merrell Song

Because I am the hopeless romantic type and I truly believe that God knows who I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with. =)

Chase Merrell - "Summer Skies"

I love you

I love you

Sweet dreams and lullabies are staring up at the summer skies

Trusting in the mighty King above to bring to me the one that I'm supposed to love

I pray about you every night and day

I can't wait to finally hear you say "I'll be with you till the very end because I love you"

I love you

Waiting patient cuz I know it's not a race, but I'll keep running till I see your pretty face

I've been saving my heart for you

I want a love that lasts and always stays true

Your prince is here to come and sweep you off your feet

I'll keep on fighting till that day we finally meet

I'll be by your side until the very end because I love you

God I trust you with my life

You know my desires and my future wife

And I'm so glad with you there is no fate

Now all I have to do is trust and wait

Girl, don't you know even though I'm not there to be your's right now

My God has it all in his hands?

Even when times get tough, I will turn and trust in His promises

His love will be the core of who we are

So I say girl, don't you know even though I'm not there to be your's right now

My God has it all in his hands?

Even when times get tough, I will turn and trust in His promises

His love will be the core of who we are

God I trust you with my life

You know my desires and my future wife

And I'm so glad with you there is no fate

Now all I have to do is trust and wait

Now all I have to do is trust and wait

I'll trust and wait

Chase Merrell- "Just Be"

I discovered this song this morning and haven't been able to stop listening to it. So I decided to type up the lyrics (couldn't find them online) and I think they are right for the most part. I just really like it because we do tend to get caught up with the things of everyday life. We get distracted by school, work, relationships, and everything else imaginable. The thing I took from this song is that no matter how much we get caught up in life, we need to make sure that we are always trying to love those around us (not the easiest thing to do). Just to focus on the basics of God, family, friends, and those in need. But I hope you enjoy the lyrics. The actual song adds a lot more to the lyrics, so if you want it I can send it because it doesn't appear that iTunes has locked it.

Just Be

It's really hard to fall asleep tonight

So many things running through my mind

Everybody thinks they know whats right for me and my life

It's like I'm living to please everyone

Hanging onto every opinion

The weight is almost too much to bare for me and my life

So much to do, so much to get done that we forget to stop and...

Just be a son and daughter

Everlasting father and rest in His arms of love

Just be a loving brother, take the time to listen to the crazy dreams he has

Just be a friend to someone who's lonely and without one, it may be the only love they see

If we would stop striving

Just be

I know they gotta a lot of things to say

I hear them now and almost everyday

Sometimes it's so hard to hear the voice of my God

Wish I didn't take so long to see no matter what you're still in love with me

Even when I let you down again I'm caught in your grace

So much to do, so much to get done that we forget to stop and...

Just be a son and daughter

Everlasting father and rest in His arms of love

Just be a loving brother, take the time to listen to the crazy dreams he has

Just be a friend to someone who's lonely and without one, it may be the only love they see

If we would stop striving

Just be

Just Wanted To Say Thank You

I was trying to think of something to blog about, but couldn't come up with anything. So since I came up empty, I am just dedicating this blog to my family and friends.

Although I may not say it often enough, I love you all and would not know what I would do with out all of you in my life.

To my family: Thank you for always supporting me and guiding me in the decisions that I have made in my life. Things would not have gone as smoothly without your help. Although I may not be home very often, please know that I do think about you daily and that you are all missed. Love you!!

To my friends from home: I know we aren't as close as we used to be in high school, but I still treasure our friendship. I know that I can call any of you whenever I run into a problem and that you will be there for me in a heartbeat. High school would have definitely sucked without you all.

To my friends in San Diego: I definitely wouldn't be where I am today without all of you. You have made the college transition easier than I could have ever hoped for. Although a majority of my family and friends are back home, I consider you my second family. I know that I can come to you with any of my problems and that I will get a listening ear. It is a scary thing to think about my life in SD without any of you.

To Margie and Rafa (the special case): You two fall under "family" and "friends from SD." See Rafa, I consider you family. You have had a large impact on my life here in San Diego and I am grateful for everything you do. Thank you for introducing me to EC and all of the countless hours spent hanging out and doing homework at your place. Love you guys!

Sorry that I wasn't able to write everybody's names down in this, but if you are reading this than you know where you fall into.

Why?

Why is it so difficult for some people to grow up? Is it really that hard? Is it too much to ask to take on one simple responsibility? Is it really that hard to say that you were wrong instead of making excuses? Are they not aware that their lack of responsibility not only affects them but also affects those who are involved, even if the others didn't have a choice in the matter. Yes I understand that people tend to slip when things come up, but to completely forget about your responsibility all together? When does one finally realize that they need to get their priorities straightened out and act like an adult for once? I am so waiting for that day to come!

OK, I am done venting now. Time to go study for finals.

Feeling Good

I can't believe that we are only a week away from Thanksgiving! Crazy! I can't wait to go home to see everyone and eat way too much food. I get to leave on Friday now because my teachers decided last minute to cancel class the week of Thanksgiving. They all decided so late that I ended up switching my flight today.

But nothing new has been going on. Just concentrating on school. Feeling better about it than I have in a while. It was taking a toll on me for a little a bit. Feeling a whole lot better for about 2 weeks now. Not exactly sure why, but just feel more calm than I usually do. Hopefully it carries thorough until the semester is over.

Well I hope everyones holiday goes well!

Just A Nice Guy Series

I was looking at my Nice Guy shirt today for some reason and decided to watch the videos that inspired the shirt. Haven't watched it in a while, so it was interesting to watch again because I forgot the details of the videos. Just wanted to share with everyone.

25 Random Things Part 2

So in order to get away from reading for class right now, I am going to make another 25 random things post. So now you can know a total of 50 random things about me. =)

1. If I wasn't studying Civil Engineering, then I think I would become a math teacher.
2. My friends' boyfriends apparently have not liked me in the past, which I find to be a little funny.
3. I am not in school mode right now.
4. I admit that I am a complete dork.
5. The Big Bang Theory is one of my favorite shows.
6. I hate Lil' Wayne and Soulja Boy music.
7. I am finally living in La Jolla.
8. Yes, I do say "heca" and "hella."
9. One of my favorite comedians is Adam Sandlar.
10. I think my LTG is starting up again in October.
11. I have been told that I am really mature for my age, but that I also look young at the same time. How does that work?
12. I always get mistaken for being Filipino.
13. I would rather do chemistry than biology any day of the week.
14. I have led small groups twice now.
15. I really need to get back to doing my homework.
16. I've always wondered why Asians are said to be bad drives but in movies they are always protrayed as the racing types.
17. I finally gave into the Gmail thing. =)
18. I wonder how I would be if I tried to pull the "jerk" thing off. Don't think that would work though.
19. I find it akward when people talk about me when I am with them. It makes me feel like I am conceted or something.
20. I know that people actually study at SDSU because I am one of them.
21. I love to joke around a lot, but I do know when I need to be serious.
22. I actually do eat a lot. Just ask my mom.
23. I only made it thorugh the first hour of "Gone With the Wind" before I fell asleep.
24. I still have not gotten used to the taste of beer.
25. I have had no idea what to blog about for about the past 2 months now.

The Motions

For the past week I have been stuck on Matthew West music. The one song that I really enjoy is called "The Motions." Here is the chorus:

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

Without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spen my whole life asking,

"What is I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

It just makes me wonder how much I really just go through the motions of everyday life. How often do I just concentrate on what is going on from day to day? I know I need to catch myself more with this problem because I know I tend to get consumed with a lot of things since I plan everything so far in advance.

Needing to read for small groups does help, but I still know I need to work on it. Maybe since I am leading chapter 11, I can get on the right track.

Well just that I would share.

It's Official!

It's official! I now live in La Jolla. I have turned in the keys and everything to the old apartment. I no longer have to go all the way down the 56 anymore! Wooo! Can't wait for what the future holds.

Random Questions

Here are some random questions that I think about every now and then. I do some of these things myself, but I still wonder.

1. Why did colgate package a trial size and normal size toothpaste of the same flavor?
2. Why are Asians said to be bad drives, but in movies they are the racing type?
3. Why is it called a driveway when you park on it?
4. Why is it called a parkway when you drive on it?
5. Why was it decided that Saturday and Sunday would be the weekend?
6. Why do people press the crosswalk button so many times? (this also includes elevators)
   
7. Why are there so many rules to the English language?
8. Why do people continually press the remote when the batteries are dead?
9. Why do people say my alarm went off when it really turned on?
10. Why can't drivers make turns at certain intersections during a certain period of time?
11. Why is island spelled with a S?

I can't think of anymore, but maybe this will get your brain started.

July?!?

Why does no one really blog anymore?

I can't believe that it is already July. It's crazy! Time goes by so fast now. I do kinda want the end of August to come fast though, so that I can go back to school. I want to try to finish as fast as possible. Well that's all for now. When I think of something else to blog, I will.