Been Forever

Man it has been a long time since I have written on this thing. I just looked and it's been over a year. Crazy how fast time goes now. A lot has happened since the last time I have posted. I've definitely learned somethings about myself through this time. Finally was able to get over that whole girl issue from last year. Took some time but realized that I did everything that I could and you couldn't ask for more. Also recently have learned that I am tired of being the second thought. I am not going to be the "not right now" guy anymore. As much as I'm the hopeless romantic, I just need to be patient and try to stop forcing things. It's going to happen when it happens.

Well this is just me throwing out whatever is on my mind right now. Hopefully I write more in this new coming year.

I am still up

So it is 3 in the morning and I can't seem to fall asleep. I tired to listen to Gabe Bondoc and that didn't help at all. So I have decided to just write a bunch of randomness.

1. I can't believe 2010 is almost over! Where did the year go?

2. SDSU basketball is currently ranked 25th

3. I would like to go back to 3rd or 4th grade. There was no stressing when you are that old

4. I still have yet to fully fill my closet

5. Give me chemistry over bio any day

6. I really think that I would be able to watch ESPN all day

7. I have come to realize that the stereotypical guys really get on my nerves

8. I am slowly getting use to the taste of beer

9. Everyone seems to be shocked when I tell them that I am 22. Man I am getting old

10. I plan to try to make it to every State basketball game that I can

11. I really dislike my Fluids class

12. I am glad that I finally bought a white board because I use it all of the time

13. Yes, I do know that I am a huge dork, geek, and anything else related to those

14. We need to get back into blogging, K seems to be the only one blogging at the moment

15. The new Tim Be Told album needs to hurry up and come out

16. I am no longer against studying with a large group

OK, that is all I can think of right now. I will try to sleep now

Questions

This is taken from K

1. Do you color? If you do, is it with markers, crayons, colored pencils, etc.?

I actually don't color that often, but when I do I prefer to color with color pencils. I just don't have enough patience to make my picture look super nice.

2. What's the most organized part (or system) in you house?

I would have to say my closet. From left to right: my dress shirts, than my short sleeves divided by color, than than short sleeve polos divided by color, than long sleeve polos divided by colors, than my long sleeve thermals divided by colors, than my henleys divided by colors, than my sweaters/track jackets with zippers divided by colors, and lastly are my hoodies (and yes you guessed it, they are divided by colors). Then on the top of my closet are my shoes. From left to right: Jordans, Nikes, Vans, and than others.

3. What's the most unorganized part (or system) in your house?

I have to go with my school supply draw. I have a bunch of pencils, erasers, pens, a stapler, note cards, and other school stuff that just seems to be everywhere in the draw. I do know where to find everything though. =)

4. If you had unlimited amounts of time & money, what museum would you want to see and why?

I am not sure if this really counts as a museum, but I would really like to see the Giza Pyramids. I learned about them earlier in the semester and they are really amazing. All of the things that are incorporated into it (like how true north it follows) is an amazing thing given the technology they had back than.

5. What is your favorite part of the fall season?

I think since living in San Diego for a little over four years now, I have come to like the cold when fall rolls around. I have realized that I really like wearing jeans and a thermal/henley for some reason. I also like the cold because it is easier to keep warm than it is to keep cool in the heat.

6. Did you dress up for Halloween?

Nope. I haven't dressed up for Halloween since 6th grade maybe? Can't really remember.

7. Have you started Christmas shopping?

Nope again. I am barely thinking about Thanksgiving. School is taking way too much of my time and is taking over my life. My friend and I did look up engineering jokes today though. One of my favorites was: Dating an engineering is a good thing because they know how to deal with stress and strain in a relationship. Yes I know I am a geek =)

8. Do you crack you knuckles?

Every now and than. I used to do it a lot in high school but I stopped since than. I tend to crack my back a lot though.

9. If you had to live in another city for a year (all expenses paid), which city would you choose?

This is a hard one for me. I can't see my self living outside of California (if all expenses are paid I would want to go somewhere I have never been before), but I guess I would have to say Chicago. I would go visit the United Center all the time and go to Bull's games. I am a basketball junkie

10. Do you have any reoccurring dreams?

Nope. I can barely even remember what I dream about after I wake up.

Music

I wanted to blog but couldn't think of what to blog about. So I decided to blog about music.

I love how music can so easily relate to our current moods or situations. There always seems to be a song that one can find whenever they find themselves in any kind of mess. Songs can say how we are feeling in the good and bad times. It definitely makes the hard times go by a lot easier. I would be so lost without music in my life.

Favorite Oldie: "Right Here Waiting" - Richard Marx

Currently Stuck In My Head: "Selfish" - *NSYNC

New

Today I turned in my keys to La Jolla Crossroads. I am officially living in my new place near SDSU!!!! I am excited and nervous about this whole thing. I know it will be a good thing for me because it is going to force me out of my comfort zone and it will allow me to experience new things. So I am both excited and nervous for all of these unknown new things. It is just going to add onto the growth of myself and the things that I have learned already through the first half of this year. I just can't wait for what the rest of this year brings!!!

Questions

Ok here is something super old. This is from my old xanga page and it was posted on August 11, 2004. I am updating now.

[my name is ]: Justin

[single or taken ]: Single

[sex ]: Male

[b-day ]: April 24, 1988

[sign ]: Taurus

[siblings ]: 2 sisters Shayna and Trisha

[hair colour ]: Black

[eye colour ]: Brown

[in the morning i am ]: Tired

[love is ]: a four letter word that means everything

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-

[what do you notice first? ]: Their voice. I've noticed that I pay attention to how people sound

[what makes you smile ]: Being around them

[what gives you a funny feeling when you see them ]: Just hanging out with them I guess

[who do you have a crush on ]: Secret

-W H O-

[is easiest to talk to ]: My friends

[are your best friends? ]: I have a lot but the ones I talk to the most are Christian, Steph, Kat, and Lyn

[do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ]: No

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-

[you talked to on the phone ]: My mom

[you instant messaged ]: Robyn

[you laughed with ]: Rafa and Will

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-

[could you live without the computer? ]: No

[what's your favourite food? ]: Beef and Tofu

[what’s ur favourite fruit? ]: Strawberry

[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain? ]: Emotional pain

[trust others way too easily? ]: Yes

-N U M B E R-

[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: 1

[of hearts i have broken? ]: 0

[of tight friends? ]: Too many to name

[of cd's that i own? ]: Too many to count

[of scars on my body? ]: A few

[of things in my past that i regret? ]: 2

-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-

[i know ]: I am a huge dork

[i want ]: To be able to stop over thinking about everything

[i have ]: An amazing family and amazing friends

[i wish ]: I never had to drive again

[i hate ]: When I am late to anything and everything

[i miss ]: Being a kid and having no worries

[i fear ]: Being rejected

[i hear ]: Conversations (this is a weird one)

[i search ]: For shoes? Not sure about this one

[i love ]: Sports

[i care ]: For family and friends

[i always ]: Laugh and act stupid

[i cry ]: When I get super stressed

[i confused ]: Girls.. Who really understands them?

[i can usually be found ]: At home watching TV or doing HW

[i need ]: To learn how to stop over thinking

-A R E . Y O U-

[wuss ]: No

[gang member ]: No

[daydreamer ]: Sometimes

[freak ]: Not really

[brat ]: No

[sarcastic ]: Yes

[goody-goody ] Yes

[talkative ]: Yes when I am comfortable. I tend to be quiet when I feel uncomfortable.

-Self-Analysis-

[your best feature ]: I would like to think I am a good listner

[most annoying thing you do ]: Stress too easily

[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented ]: Legs (everyone thinks I shave, but I don't)

[you'd like to visit ]: I want to visit Hawaii again

[a drink you order most often ]: Water

[a book you highly recommend ]: Fireproof

[a film you could watch over and over ]: UP

[your cologne or perfume ]: Guess Suede

[under your bed or in your closet you hide ]: Nothing

-f a v o r i t e s-

[colour ]: Blue

[boys names ]: Not sure on names

[girls names ]: Not sure on names

[subjects in school ]: Math

[animals ]: Snakes

[sports ]: Basketball and Football

-c u r r e n t-

[clothes ]: A Hurley shirt and jeans

[music ]: Jazz

[make-up ]: None

[annoyance ]: People who think they are always right

[smell ]: Food

[favourite artist ]: Gabe Bondoc

[favourite group]: None at the moment

[desktop picture ]: Tyreke Evans

[color of toenails ]: Clear

l a s t | p e r s o n

[you touched ]: Rafa? Gave him the hand shake

[hugged ]: Rafa

[you imed ]: Robyn

[you yelled at ]: Don't even remember

a r e | y o u

[understanding ]: Yes

[open-minded ]: Yes

[arrogant ]: No

[insecure ]: Sometimes

[interesting ]: Maybe

[random ]: Yes

[hungry ]: Not right now

[smart ]: Kinda

[moody ]: Not really

[hard working ]: Yes

[organized ] Yes

[healthy ] Yes

[shy ]: Sometimes

[Difficult ]: Sometimes

[attractive ]: I don't know

[bored easily ]: Yes

[messy ]: Sometimes

[responsible ]: Yes

[obsessed ]: At times

[angry ]: No

[sad ]: Kinda

[happy ]: I guess

[trusting ]: Yes

d o | y o u | e v e r

[sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you? ]: No

[save conversations ]: Sometimes

[wish you were a member of the opposite sex? ]: Last night at the softball game. I wanted to bat more. haha

[wish you were younger ]: Yes. I want to be a kid again sometimes

[Cried because someone said something to you? ] Rarely

F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s

[do you like filling these out? ]: I don't mind them

[how many people are you sending this to ]: No one

[who will send it back ]: No one

[gold or silver ]: Gold

[what was the last film you saw at the movies? ]: Toy Story 3

[favourite cartoon/anime ]: Family Guy

[what did you have for breakfast this morning ] Nothing

[who would you love being locked in a room with ]: No one

[would you colour your hair ]: Nope

[could you ever get off the computer ]: Yes

[how many people are on your buddy list ]: 90

[who are you talkin to righ now ]: Rafa, Margie, Will, and Dar

[drink alcohol ]: Sometimes

[like watching sunrises or sunsets ]: Sunsets

Trying

These past few days have definitely been interesting, but in a good way. I have been hit with various situations in just the past few days, but with some help I am learning what kind of person I really am and the things that I can still work on about myself. I have seen now that even though I continually put others before myself, I still need to be willing to accept help when it is given. I need to be able to put my guard down and allow those who care for me to be able to help me when they can. This will be difficult for me though because it makes me feel as if I am being a selfish person by wanting the attention and the help. This just means though that I need to work on my perspective on the whole thing, which I am consciously going to try to improve on. Just because people are willing to lend a hand, does not mean I am being a selfish person by accepting that hand.

The situation that arose today has also shed light on the person that I am becoming. I always try to be a fair person, but when it seems that comprises can't be reached, decisions must be made. This doesn't mean that things have to end ugly, but it just means that the easiest thing for everyone may be to go separate ways. It has been a lot to process so far, but I am trying.

I have also learned that I really don't hold any grudges against anyone. I am now trying to build a new friendship with someone whom I have had no type of relationship whatsoever with since high school. We both know that all of the past mistakes no longer matter and that they truly are all in the past. It is pointless to dwell on the things that happened because we both have grown up and are no longer immature students. I have no idea where this road will go, but I am excited to have an old friend back and I know it will be better than it was in the past.

Trying to process this all has been a whirl wind for me. I think my head is still spinning from trying to wrap my mind around everything. But it is an amazing thing to see the type of person you are and the things that you could work on about yourself. If we weren't able to grow as people, it would be super boring.

I hope this all made sense. I have so many thoughts running through my head right now and I don't know if I was able to fully get it out on here.