Why?

Why is it so difficult for some people to grow up? Is it really that hard? Is it too much to ask to take on one simple responsibility? Is it really that hard to say that you were wrong instead of making excuses? Are they not aware that their lack of responsibility not only affects them but also affects those who are involved, even if the others didn't have a choice in the matter. Yes I understand that people tend to slip when things come up, but to completely forget about your responsibility all together? When does one finally realize that they need to get their priorities straightened out and act like an adult for once? I am so waiting for that day to come!

OK, I am done venting now. Time to go study for finals.

Feeling Good

I can't believe that we are only a week away from Thanksgiving! Crazy! I can't wait to go home to see everyone and eat way too much food. I get to leave on Friday now because my teachers decided last minute to cancel class the week of Thanksgiving. They all decided so late that I ended up switching my flight today.

But nothing new has been going on. Just concentrating on school. Feeling better about it than I have in a while. It was taking a toll on me for a little a bit. Feeling a whole lot better for about 2 weeks now. Not exactly sure why, but just feel more calm than I usually do. Hopefully it carries thorough until the semester is over.

Well I hope everyones holiday goes well!

Just A Nice Guy Series

I was looking at my Nice Guy shirt today for some reason and decided to watch the videos that inspired the shirt. Haven't watched it in a while, so it was interesting to watch again because I forgot the details of the videos. Just wanted to share with everyone.

25 Random Things Part 2

So in order to get away from reading for class right now, I am going to make another 25 random things post. So now you can know a total of 50 random things about me. =)

1. If I wasn't studying Civil Engineering, then I think I would become a math teacher.
2. My friends' boyfriends apparently have not liked me in the past, which I find to be a little funny.
3. I am not in school mode right now.
4. I admit that I am a complete dork.
5. The Big Bang Theory is one of my favorite shows.
6. I hate Lil' Wayne and Soulja Boy music.
7. I am finally living in La Jolla.
8. Yes, I do say "heca" and "hella."
9. One of my favorite comedians is Adam Sandlar.
10. I think my LTG is starting up again in October.
11. I have been told that I am really mature for my age, but that I also look young at the same time. How does that work?
12. I always get mistaken for being Filipino.
13. I would rather do chemistry than biology any day of the week.
14. I have led small groups twice now.
15. I really need to get back to doing my homework.
16. I've always wondered why Asians are said to be bad drives but in movies they are always protrayed as the racing types.
17. I finally gave into the Gmail thing. =)
18. I wonder how I would be if I tried to pull the "jerk" thing off. Don't think that would work though.
19. I find it akward when people talk about me when I am with them. It makes me feel like I am conceted or something.
20. I know that people actually study at SDSU because I am one of them.
21. I love to joke around a lot, but I do know when I need to be serious.
22. I actually do eat a lot. Just ask my mom.
23. I only made it thorugh the first hour of "Gone With the Wind" before I fell asleep.
24. I still have not gotten used to the taste of beer.
25. I have had no idea what to blog about for about the past 2 months now.

The Motions

For the past week I have been stuck on Matthew West music. The one song that I really enjoy is called "The Motions." Here is the chorus:

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

Without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spen my whole life asking,

"What is I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

It just makes me wonder how much I really just go through the motions of everyday life. How often do I just concentrate on what is going on from day to day? I know I need to catch myself more with this problem because I know I tend to get consumed with a lot of things since I plan everything so far in advance.

Needing to read for small groups does help, but I still know I need to work on it. Maybe since I am leading chapter 11, I can get on the right track.

Well just that I would share.

It's Official!

It's official! I now live in La Jolla. I have turned in the keys and everything to the old apartment. I no longer have to go all the way down the 56 anymore! Wooo! Can't wait for what the future holds.

Random Questions

Here are some random questions that I think about every now and then. I do some of these things myself, but I still wonder.

1. Why did colgate package a trial size and normal size toothpaste of the same flavor?
2. Why are Asians said to be bad drives, but in movies they are the racing type?
3. Why is it called a driveway when you park on it?
4. Why is it called a parkway when you drive on it?
5. Why was it decided that Saturday and Sunday would be the weekend?
6. Why do people press the crosswalk button so many times? (this also includes elevators)
   
7. Why are there so many rules to the English language?
8. Why do people continually press the remote when the batteries are dead?
9. Why do people say my alarm went off when it really turned on?
10. Why can't drivers make turns at certain intersections during a certain period of time?
11. Why is island spelled with a S?

I can't think of anymore, but maybe this will get your brain started.

July?!?

Why does no one really blog anymore?

I can't believe that it is already July. It's crazy! Time goes by so fast now. I do kinda want the end of August to come fast though, so that I can go back to school. I want to try to finish as fast as possible. Well that's all for now. When I think of something else to blog, I will.

The Friend Zone

I haven't blogged in forever so I am going to post one now. Since I don't know what to blog about I am going to write about an article that I read over a week ago. It asked how people ended up in the "Friend Zone" and if it was possible to get out of it.

I personally feel as if I always fall into this zone, which sucks =/. I for some reason always come off to girls as the friend type rather than the dating type. I don't know if it is something that I do, but I seem to always run into the same situation. I could be interested in a girl and then after we hang out a few times she says that I am a great friend. As soon as I hear that I know that I will be nothing more than a friend.

I would like to think though that it is possible to get out of the "Friend Zone" even though I know it is unlikely. I believe this could happen because I would like to date someone that I feel that I know and could get along with. A friend is someone you can have fun with and fell comfortable with. I just feel that a friend bypasses the whole getting to know someone stage, so dating a friend could sometimes be easier.

I haven't run into this recently, but for some reason I would always find myself in this situation in high school. So, is one able to become more than a friend once they are considered to be in the "Friend Zone?"

The Perfect Memorial Day Weekend

This Memorial Day Weekend has been so much fun. It was filled with a lot of activities and it sucks that it has to end.

On Saturday I had breakfast at the Pancake House with Will, Kat, PB, and Tina. Had to wait a while to get seated but it was worth the wait. Will tried to hook me up with someone again. He was trying to get me to talk to our waitress, but I don't think I could ever do that. Then later I headed to Will's place to watch the Lakers game. The outcome was the one flaw in my weekend. Hahaha.

Then on Sunday I went to church and had Tech Crew. After service all of the youth and a group of adults headed to Mission Bay for the Day. We stayed out there all day and played football, frisbee, and bocce ball (the old man game according to PB). We were all out there till 9 and then the sprinklers came on, which was crazy! We had to rush to move everything into the street so that everything wouldn't get wet. It was fun though.

Then today I went to get dim sum with some of my roommates. Nothing is better than Asian food. Then I went to go see Star Trek with Kat. The movie was really good and better than I had expected. After the movie, Kat and I went to go meet up with PB and Tina at Cadao for dinner. After we had finished eatting, Jerry and Grace walked in and then joined us. We ended up staying and talking to them until they had finished their dinner. After dinner PB, Tina, Jerry, Grace, and I all went bowling at Mira Mesa Bowl. It was really fun and Jerry and Tina almost got the curve down. Nice job! I really should buy a ball and shoes since I want to go bowling so much. Hahaha

Well that was my recap. Hope it was entertaing.

Coming Up On 3 Years!

I am about to finish another semester at SDSU (the better school) and I recently realized that I have been in San Diego for almost 3 years now. It is so crazy how fast time flies. I moved in August of 2006 and August 2009 is only a few months away. As I look back at the past 3 years, I am happy to say that I love where I am at right now. I have done my best in school and plan to continue to do so. I have also found a church that is one in a million and really don't know where I would be without the people there. It truly is another family that I have come to love.

I still remember the days when I would just go to Margie and Rafa's in the morning to go to church with them. To be honest, I dreaded going because I just always felt lazy and that I didn't need it. I would make up excuses, such as homework or my alarm clock didn't go off, to get out of going to church. I think the first time I actually hung out with people from Experience was when Taylor invited me over to his place for lunch and a movie. I was really on and off with Experience for probably about the whole year of 2007, which is pretty sad.

The thing that allowed me to be where I am today was the invite that PS gave me to his LTG. Ever since joining the LTG, my life has completely changed. I am still growing but I am definitely a better person ever since joining the LTG.

So, thank you to all of those who I have met at Experience because even though you may not know it, you have shaped me into the person that I am today.

Second Chance

I was looking through some old high school stuff and I found this old poem that I wrote. I just felt like posting it but keep in mind that it is corny because I was still in high school haha. Well here it is.

These last few years have gone by so fast,
And it is so hard to reflect on what happened in the past.
You have no idea how many tears I cried,
I wanted us to be, but you had no idea how hard I tried.
Even though you wouldn't give me the time or even a galnce,
I am willing to give this a second chance.
If you want this as much as I do,
Then I promise I will never let you go.
I will always be by your side,
And if you ever get lost, I will be your guide.
I hope with all of my heart that you want this too,
Because I don't want to have a heartbreak number two.
I promise I will treat you like every man should,
And I'll love you more than any man could.
So please give me a second chance,
Because I think I deserve a second glance.

*This no longer applies to the person it was meant for

Back To the Basics

The past few weeks I feel as if I have fallen off in my walk. I'm just not doing what I should be doing. And instead of admitting that it is my fault, I am going to blame it on school. I have allowed myself to be "too" consumed when it comes to school. I have let it take over things that I have done in the past few weeks. So I am going to try my best to start concentrating on God again from this point on. Hopefully I can get back on track since there is only a little over a week left in school. I am also planning to do SOD after school is over, so I am looking forward to where I will be in the next few months. So I am trying to get back on the right path in my walk. Hope all goes well.

Seems Long

The last week and a half has been one of the longest of my life. Last Wednesday, the 22nd, I was playing basketball and turned my ankle. It sucked because I haven't turned an ankle in forever. The better part is that since I am a guy I decided to keep playing on it. So I couldn't pretty much walk on Thursday and Friday, just ended up hopping everywhere. It has gotten a lot better but I still can't run and if I move it wrong it hurts.

Then last night on the way up to my apartment, I caught my foot with the gate. It took some skin of the back of my ankle, but its okay now.

Then to top everything off, this morning I locked my keys in my car at school. I don't know how I even did it. I thought I had my keys with me but as soon as I closed the door I realized what I did. I lucked out though because when I called AAA they said that someone else called from the same structure. So I only had to wait about 30 minutes. I got a little scared because this was before 8 am and I had a test at 9 am. But everything worked out.

So this has been one of the longest weeks of my life. So glad it is the weekend.

Oh and by the way, the Bulls forced a game 7. WOOOOOOOOOO

Almost

I can't wait for school to be over. I am almost done!!! This semester has gone by fast, but it has not been one of the easier ones. There have been several points this semester where I just wanted to go crazy and stop everything. So with finals just around the corner, I need to crack down on the studies to finish strong. Can't wait for the upcoming trip because it will be a much needed break from everything. Life has slowly been getting to me and I am trying my best to get through it. I can't wait to see what life has coming for me later this year though. I am looking forward to August and I hope things work out. We will see what happens.

My New Addiction

I just turned 21 on Friday and I feel old. Hahaha. My roommates and some friends chipped in to get me an iPod Touch and I have been playing with it since Saturday. I can truly say that I am addicted to my new iPod. This new addiction to my iPod caused me to think about addictions in general (kind of a stretch but I think it works).

When we allow addictions to take over our lives we begin to lose the things that really matter. Wheter it be alcohol or an iPod, we must always try to keep our eyes open to our addictions. If we can't find our addiction, then it can cause us to lose things such as friends and family.

How does one even become addicted to something? I mean my iPod is just a thing and I shouldn't let it take away from my schooling. I do realize this and will put it away if I can't get things done. So we all must try to find the things that we let run our lives and try to put an end to it. When we can do this then we can be truly free and enjoy life.

Guys Don't Understand

I once again just got done reading an article on yahoo (I really need to get a life). It lists 9 things that guys don't understand about women. Here they are:

1. The Shoe Surplus
2. The Hair-Tie Chaos
3. The Communication Encryption
4. The Cattiness
   
5. The Insectophobia
6. The Constant Drama
7. The Hunger for a Quick Hitch
8. The Attitude Transition
9. The Attraction to Jerks

#1 is something I understand. I myself have too many shoes in my closet.
#2 is just about women wanting options?
#3 is something I somewhat understand. The article says it's about saying one thing but meaning the complete opposite. I find this one to be very funny.
#4 is a little confusing. Why do girls always feel that they have to compete with other girls?
#5 is not only women. I know a lot of people, both men and women, who are afraid of bugs.
#6 is something I definitely understand. Girls always love to be involved in drama and it can get so tiring.
#7 is a little weird. They quote a guy saying why do girls want to get married so fast. Don't really agree with this point.
#8 is complicated. Things can be good for a while, but then they sometimes love to flip the switch. I sometimes think are going well, but then she does a complete 180.
#9 is the one that I have talked a lot about. I still have no idea why girls love the jerks. Lyn and Kat said it could just be about the alpha male thing. Even if it is because of this, it still does not make sense.

Man this is the second relationship blog, how sad.

Nice Guys

I just got finished reading this article about "nice guys." This article states why the jerk is usually the guy who gets the girl. What I am got from reading this article is that "nice guys" finish last because they care too much. The author says that if the guy is too nice, than he loses his worth, value, and confidence. The author also says that the jerk gets the girl because he doesn't invest everything.

Really? Those are the reasons one can come up with for the "nice guy" thing? Just because someone cares means that they lose their own value? When one invest themselves into a relationship they are headed to being just a friend? In my opinion this is all wrong. "Nice guys" don't care too much, it's just who they are. They really do want the best for people and it just comes as second nature to them. And investing too much? Why would I want to be half committed in a relationship? Would that not seem as if I did not care about the other person? A relationship needs both persons to be committed and be willing to work on the relationship. If one is not fully committed, than the relationship won't work out.

I just think girls make up excuses for the "nice guy" because they are afraid of ruining a friendship. If girls really wanted a relationship with a guy they could fully trust, should they not at least give the "nice guy" a chance?

I don't know if this made any sense, but I just wanted to share my thoughts about this article.

Fireproof

Last week I read the "Fireproof" book. I also watched the movie the week before that and both are really good. I would suggest reading the book first though. But, my point about "Fireproof" is that there is a very good part that got me thinking. Here is the part from the book:

"How am I supposed to show love to someone over and over and over who constantly rejects me?"

His dad came to a halt at the solitary cross. He looked up, then leaned against the vertical beam as he studied his son through wire-rimmed glasses.

Caleb blinked against the sunlight.

"That's a good question," John said.

Caleb lifted his gaze to the cross, this ancient symbol of love and sacrifice, then let it come back to rest on his father. With the meeting of eyes, something flashed through Caleb's thoughts. "No." He hardened his jaw. "No, that is not what I'm doing."

The movie does a very good job depicting this scene. As soon as Caleb asks his father how he is supposed to love someone, the camera pans over to his father standing right next to the cross. It is saying "HELLO" what do you think this represents!?

This just got me thinking because it is true. God loves us unconditionally even after we continually reject him. I find that to be crazy, but in a good way. Someone loves me so much that they will love me even after I ignore them for so long. How many of us have that kind of patience? How many of us would stand by someone who continually rejected us? I mean in my own personal life I think I have failed to follow this example of love. In high school I tried to show someone that I truly cared about them, and every time it was thrown back in my face. The relationship ended badly and took over two years to somewhat mend. If I had followed this example of love, than the relationship would not have ended the way it did.

Not sure if any of this made sense, but just wanted to share my thoughts.

Selfish?

How does one tell if they are being selfish? Where does someone draw the line between being selfish and being selfless?

I have been thinking about this for about the last week. It started when Margie, Rafa, and I went to Azusa last week and met up with my family. Toward the end of the day, a subject was brought up about a possible change come August. Most know what I want to do, but how do I know if it is right? After talking to my family about this situation, I began to wonder if I was just being selfish in wanting a change. Every reason that I come up with for this change always starts with "I want," and I don't know if that is enough to follow through with it. One of the main reasons that I want this change is because I believe that it will help in my walk, but I don't know if this is being selfish. Does this seem that I am looking out for myself? Am I forgetting everyone else and just doing what I want to do? Everyone I have talked to agrees with me about the situation, which helps a little, but I still can't shake this feeling of being selfish.

Another reason that I am questioning this decision is because I don't know the effect it will have on my family. If I were to go through with everything, it would most likely put my family in a bit of a bind for a while. I just don't know if it is really worth it. Is it worth risking this just for something that I want?

I guess my main problem is that I can't decided if this is something that is needed or something that is just wanted. Then I guess the next question is how do I figure out if it is a need or a want?

Favorite Lyrics

Here are some of my favorite lyrics.

These are some of my favorite lyrics. I went through my itunes really quickly so I probably missed some, but these are still good. You should listen to these song if you get a chance. If you listen to them I promise it makes the lyrics 10 times better.

1. "This little box holds a shiny thing, a shiny ring that means you're everything." - Gabe Bondoc "Life Love Everything"
2. "I'm just one of a million who wants to get to know one in a million you." - Gabe Bondoc "Chasing"
3. "You know I miss you more than Shaq miss free throws . . . that's a lot." - Gym Class Heroes "Catch Me If You Can"
4. "I will move ahead bold and confident, taking every step in obedience." - John Waller "While I'm Waiting"
5. "When you cheated girl, my heart bleeded girl, so it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt. Just a classic case scenario, tale as old as time girl you got what you deserved." - Justin Timberlake "What Goes Around . . ./. . . Comes Around"
6. "In you we're living, in you we're moving, in you we're finding who we are." - Kutless "Finding Who We Are"
7. Please don't worry about me I'm fine. Only going to play the fool one time." - Ne-Yo "Go On Girl"
8. "I know sometimes it's gonna rain, but baby can we make up now 'cause I can't sleep through the pain." - Ne-Yo "Mad"
9. "You can selfish, but all I want is your love. And you can call me hopeless 'cause I'm hopelessly in love." - 'N Sync "Selfish"
10. " My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, you never need to carry more than you can hold." - Rascal Flatts "My Wish"
11. "Your love is built like a drug and I don't want to be sober." - T-Pain (Feat. Justin Timberlake) "Can't Believe It (Remix)"
12. "So you scream at the sky as you're lying there, throwing words in the air 'cause he doesn't care if you're beautiful. And you dream of a world in a better place, where you don't have to put up a happy face." - Chris August "Just the Way You Are"
13. "Dictionary, how come I can't find, any words inside you that apply, none of these words seem to catch my eye. We need a new word for her." - Gabe Bondoc "Dictionary"
14. "So what have I got to prove, and what have I got to lose when you're not worth fighting for. And why am I feeling down while your out messing around and you're not worth begging for." - Five Times August "Up To Me"
15. "Man I wish I could stop time like a photograph" - Kanye West "Good Night"
16. "Cause if your love was all I had in this life, that would be enough until the end of time" - Justin Timberlake "Until the End of Time"
17. "I'd rather you're happy, than miserable with me" - Ne-Yo "Back To What You Know"
    

25 Random Things

Since I don't know what to write about right now, I am going to copy Kat. =)

1. I believe that I am a good listener.
2. I fall into the typical "nice guy" description.
3. I can move my ears.
   
4. I am trying my best right now to go further in my walk with God.
5. I wonder sometimes where I would be in my life without EC. This is a scary thought.
6. My favorite color is blue.
7. I rarely ever blow up on people.
8. My favorite number is 23.
9. My favorite sport is basketball.
10. I have two sisters named Shayna and Trisha. I can't believe how old they are!
    
11. I spend at least 75% of my time in the La Jolla area.
12. I can't read text books at all. They put me to sleep.
13. I hate it when people don't say thank you when you hold the door open for them.
    
14. I listen to every type of music except for screaming metal and twangy country.
15. My favorite subject is math.
    
16. My favorite Disney movie of all time is Aladdin.
17. I have lived in Sacramento, Stockton, and San Diego.
18. I hate when the box of my DVD box sets are damaged.
19. I have a lot of patience with people.
20. I don't have a problem with watching "chick" flicks.
    
21. I have more girl best friends than I have guy best friends.
22. I need to work on getting out of my comfort zone more.
23. I try my best to put others before myself.
24. When I feel comfortable with someone I begin to joke with them. (so if I make fun of you take it as a good thing) =)
25. I hate being late to anything. This causes me to plan too much.